It's a struggle. You feel that you are losing the ground from underneath your feet. It either melts or it just disappears. Your body starts shaking, your palms are sweating and you tell yourself that this can't be happening to you. All those stories you heard, all those movies you've seen, they won't help you when your world takes this turn and completely changes everything you ever knew before. You want to cry, you want to tell yourself it isn't real just so to protect yourself, but you can't hide away from it. It's as real as the beating of your heart, as the fears you've ever had.
Funny how falling in love for the first time can be so similar with losing your soulmate, although one makes you whole and one turns you to dust.